I felt like crying, but I know I couldn't.. Just for me to let out a tear is showing my weakness and there's nothing that can hurt me more than my own thoughts. I feel that I write the truth but I never read what I have written.. and that I believe I am only writting from my imagination.
As all of you read this journal, your first impression is either a angered confused teenager or someone who needs help. I don't know what I see myself as but I know one thing.. I'm weakening. I use to not care what happens to other people. I use to not care if someone got hurt. I use to not care about anyone except for me. As usual I have to remind myself what I have learned through my mistakes and what others had done.
Think before you speak,
Smile and don't tell them you're hurt,
See the world brightly,
Try and love a person for who they are,
Never get close cause you'll always get hurt
Expectations will always give you a broken heart
Fantasys never come true when you imagine them
There's probably a lot more that I've learnt but I just can't seem to remember or so. Right now I think I'm in one of my weakest moment but I'm just lucky that no one can see that I am.. who know's what might've happen, they might've start pitying for me and there is nothing worst than being pityed. Pitying someone is just a waste of time when you could teach them to be independent, but then.. they might not wanna learn. It doesn't matter. Life will end anyway. It's like a candle burning and when the flame goes out, so will you.
Then the thought about being with someone where you can just hold them forever and never let go. Sure we all felt like this but have you ever stopped and think about everyone cause maybe the one who really cared about you was always there, you just never realised. You should stop and think.. where is the one you need most? Maybe they're right infront of you but then you gotta think.. when were you ever there for them? They might say you're always there but what if you weren't?
Right now.. I am so much in pain that I can hardly think straight and write down what's on my mind..
Yours Truly,
Nayt
As all of you read this journal, your first impression is either a angered confused teenager or someone who needs help. I don't know what I see myself as but I know one thing.. I'm weakening. I use to not care what happens to other people. I use to not care if someone got hurt. I use to not care about anyone except for me. As usual I have to remind myself what I have learned through my mistakes and what others had done.
Think before you speak,
Smile and don't tell them you're hurt,
See the world brightly,
Try and love a person for who they are,
Never get close cause you'll always get hurt
Expectations will always give you a broken heart
Fantasys never come true when you imagine them
There's probably a lot more that I've learnt but I just can't seem to remember or so. Right now I think I'm in one of my weakest moment but I'm just lucky that no one can see that I am.. who know's what might've happen, they might've start pitying for me and there is nothing worst than being pityed. Pitying someone is just a waste of time when you could teach them to be independent, but then.. they might not wanna learn. It doesn't matter. Life will end anyway. It's like a candle burning and when the flame goes out, so will you.
Then the thought about being with someone where you can just hold them forever and never let go. Sure we all felt like this but have you ever stopped and think about everyone cause maybe the one who really cared about you was always there, you just never realised. You should stop and think.. where is the one you need most? Maybe they're right infront of you but then you gotta think.. when were you ever there for them? They might say you're always there but what if you weren't?
Right now.. I am so much in pain that I can hardly think straight and write down what's on my mind..
Yours Truly,
Nayt
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