Dear Reader,
I know why she's hurting, I know why her heart is aching, I know why she wants to cry though she forbids herself to do so. She's hiding from the truth again, she wants to move on, but what she doesn't realize is, she doesn't want to let go. She's not so use to being happy, cheery all the time. Inside of her she finds it pathetic, useless, but she enjoys the feeling. Yes, she does, and she's finding it confusing how pain could taste so sweet. It's hurting her and even though she's happy, she's still not fully complete. When you're sad, you're just sad and that's acceptable but when you're happy... What is happy? Does she want to believe that she could fall for this "pretty-boy?" Or is she denying that she has fallen for him? Then again, maybe she's lost in his eyes. Has she drowned yet? I'm still waiting. Are you going to be weak now sister? Are you ready to be weak again? Are you?
Mind she walk down the street and see 89 again, what will she do then? Walk by him? Or say hello? But what if those feelings come again? What if those feelings were just memories? Yet, she'll still feel a connection to him. She will. She always does, but why? Why is there a connection? They'll walk pass by each other, staring into each other's eyes not realizing the other one is looking deep into the other. They'll remember. I loved them, but see, that's not the most painful memory. What's worst is, they begin to realize, they will always be special to me. Oh, maybe that doesn't really hurt, but the fact that it's true. Am I right? Am I close enough? Oh forget it then. Once again, one or the other will be confuse with their emotions. How strange. How could they hold on and hurt each other and let go. Is it truly to save their own pain or each others? Maybe they let go only to save each other's heart break, couldn't bear to crushing their heart in the future. It'll be too much pain. Does it really hurt that much sister? Does pain really feel that way? Does it really hurt that much?
Are you confuse again? Are you scared? Have you wondered if "pretty-boy" there might break your heart? Wait, he has fallen for you hasn’t he? Of course he has. All of them do. You're in control. You're always in control. You have to be. If you aren't, then what are you doing? I know you, but I don't understand you. Well it's only a human thing to love and hurt isn't it? Or is it the other way round? Oh well It doesn't matter. Oh, would you believe this part? You're actually over "ye-old-89," well I believe you are. It's not going to hurt you just as much now, 'cause I never believe you fell in love with him really. Always have thought you just loved him deeply. You ought to know, falling in love; it's just not our thing. You hate it don't you when I make a point? Wait, wait, you hate it even more when it's true. Now, stop and think, is this a fling? Puppy love? Or something that would grow into something *erk* much more then that? Are you willing to put your guard down? Are you willing to let someone you just met "in"? Scared yet? Ever wondered how the 3 little words could come out so easily? This is just another fling or puppy love right? Are you really in control sister? Do you think you are? Or is your heart taking control of you?
Yes, yes I've heard. You hate hurting like "this." It must really hurt then ey? Stop fooling yourself. You hate being weak, you hate showing your weakness. You hate to think you're like me. You hate to think that you could lower your emotions to my level, wait or is it higher? Still, there are things that make you and I different. I want knowledge, you want answers. Still they're the same, yet quite different really. For me knowledge is answers and to you, answers are just pieces of you unsolved. Look at yourself in the mirror. Look and think. Do you really think that's you in it? Could you believe this is what you are? Or could that be who you imagine yourself to be?
Yours Truly,
Nayt
I love you, I do, but what I've learnt... loving you is the only way to destroy you. I'm just like you, I get lonely too.
I know why she's hurting, I know why her heart is aching, I know why she wants to cry though she forbids herself to do so. She's hiding from the truth again, she wants to move on, but what she doesn't realize is, she doesn't want to let go. She's not so use to being happy, cheery all the time. Inside of her she finds it pathetic, useless, but she enjoys the feeling. Yes, she does, and she's finding it confusing how pain could taste so sweet. It's hurting her and even though she's happy, she's still not fully complete. When you're sad, you're just sad and that's acceptable but when you're happy... What is happy? Does she want to believe that she could fall for this "pretty-boy?" Or is she denying that she has fallen for him? Then again, maybe she's lost in his eyes. Has she drowned yet? I'm still waiting. Are you going to be weak now sister? Are you ready to be weak again? Are you?
Mind she walk down the street and see 89 again, what will she do then? Walk by him? Or say hello? But what if those feelings come again? What if those feelings were just memories? Yet, she'll still feel a connection to him. She will. She always does, but why? Why is there a connection? They'll walk pass by each other, staring into each other's eyes not realizing the other one is looking deep into the other. They'll remember. I loved them, but see, that's not the most painful memory. What's worst is, they begin to realize, they will always be special to me. Oh, maybe that doesn't really hurt, but the fact that it's true. Am I right? Am I close enough? Oh forget it then. Once again, one or the other will be confuse with their emotions. How strange. How could they hold on and hurt each other and let go. Is it truly to save their own pain or each others? Maybe they let go only to save each other's heart break, couldn't bear to crushing their heart in the future. It'll be too much pain. Does it really hurt that much sister? Does pain really feel that way? Does it really hurt that much?
Are you confuse again? Are you scared? Have you wondered if "pretty-boy" there might break your heart? Wait, he has fallen for you hasn’t he? Of course he has. All of them do. You're in control. You're always in control. You have to be. If you aren't, then what are you doing? I know you, but I don't understand you. Well it's only a human thing to love and hurt isn't it? Or is it the other way round? Oh well It doesn't matter. Oh, would you believe this part? You're actually over "ye-old-89," well I believe you are. It's not going to hurt you just as much now, 'cause I never believe you fell in love with him really. Always have thought you just loved him deeply. You ought to know, falling in love; it's just not our thing. You hate it don't you when I make a point? Wait, wait, you hate it even more when it's true. Now, stop and think, is this a fling? Puppy love? Or something that would grow into something *erk* much more then that? Are you willing to put your guard down? Are you willing to let someone you just met "in"? Scared yet? Ever wondered how the 3 little words could come out so easily? This is just another fling or puppy love right? Are you really in control sister? Do you think you are? Or is your heart taking control of you?
Yes, yes I've heard. You hate hurting like "this." It must really hurt then ey? Stop fooling yourself. You hate being weak, you hate showing your weakness. You hate to think you're like me. You hate to think that you could lower your emotions to my level, wait or is it higher? Still, there are things that make you and I different. I want knowledge, you want answers. Still they're the same, yet quite different really. For me knowledge is answers and to you, answers are just pieces of you unsolved. Look at yourself in the mirror. Look and think. Do you really think that's you in it? Could you believe this is what you are? Or could that be who you imagine yourself to be?
Yours Truly,
Nayt
I love you, I do, but what I've learnt... loving you is the only way to destroy you. I'm just like you, I get lonely too.
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