Dear Reader,

I've been meaning to write a letter for some time, however that feeling to express and to communicate with another seems to pass me quite easily. I have been repetitious with my words anyway - maybe because I find it difficult to explain it differently.

The problem is the same.

The first week of this year, it felt like I had found some sort of peace. It must have been a new years affect where you just reset your mindset and you just fool yourself to reinvent all over again. Have I somewhat heal this time? I think I have, just a little bit - but I think that might be because I am blinding myself to some possibilities. I had never thought of seeing some things in a different light or shadow in this case - it is silly of me to have forgotten that life could be so vile and so cruel as to crush your hopes and dreams when all you did was just 'lived' in this world. Or at least tried to live. So now the question is, which is more likely? The light that you bathe yourself in or the shadows of darkness that you leave behind you? What is your actual state? Which is true and which is false? Or is it really a combination of these things, is it that moment that seems to hang in between the light and shadows? When you look at the light... just before it turns into a shadow... you will see it. That moment that hangs there. You will see it and understand and feel where I am today. Just right there. In that moment.

Yours Truly,
Nayt