Dear Reader,

I feel like I should be writing, but I'm not really sure about what. I guess, the truth is I don't really want to talk, let alone think about what's really going on in my mind. I just, don't want to fall back into that trap again. I am still so angry though. Or maybe I'm just still really hurt. I'm not quite sure.

What do I do now though?

I want to believe that there's something so different happening around me now, but there isn't. I feel some sort of corruption happening within me. I feel like something hidden under a pile of ash. Just lying there, and waiting for something to just find me. Find me. Find me here. Find me now. I just, I can't turn around anymore now can I? I don't want to recreate the past. I just want to be able to move and know that I won't break. I want to know some truth. The deeper truth - but I don't think anyone could give it to me right now.

Something. Please. Anything. Just. Manifest. Now.

Just. Now.

Yours Truly,
Nayt.