Dear Reader,

Looking back from two years ago, I have to say that I've really changed. My nature is different. Before I believe I was more passive, ready to just let things handle it self. Now I find myself more unable to control the anger that at times builds up in me. What is worse is that I find a need to act it out and I will only let myself do so onto objects. Mostly walls. Anything that I couldn't really "break." I am scared that to some point I might end up actually destroying something. So far, I only have my knuckles bleeding and bruising.

But what else would one expect when one violently punches the walls?

I don't know how I could've gotten so angry as to act that way.
Maybe I'm just scared...
I don't wanna lose again.

Yours Truly,
Me.