Dear Reader,

I've realized this is probably the only way I can talk to you. Yet so much that I want to say, I keep holding back because you deserve more than this. I deserve more than this. I keep imagining situations where if I did tell you what I felt, what I feel now - I imagined what would I say to you? But all I see are moments and in my head, each time when I am closer to letting it all out - I cannot breathe a word. I find it more difficult each time to express how I feel because I have been practicing for so long to hold it in by trying to stop myself from identifying this feeling as love.

So when am I gonna wake up and recognize this feeling to be something else? I am letting this slip away and I only know that... Right now I am empty and I don't know how else to feel towards you.

Yours Truly,
Me.