Dear Reader,

Butterflies keep waking me up in the morning - too early in the morning and I can't fall back asleep because of the feeling. My heart is beating too fast and the butterflies at times are creating a whirlwind in my stomach. I am usually forced to just sit, wait and wait till I calm down properly in order to fall asleep. It has been like this the past week and I am worried it might be because I have forgotten to take my medication - Yes. I should take my medication.

Yet I wonder if it is because of something else.

I am waking up to thoughts as well, and there are times before I am conscious of myself in the morning, I am recalling a dream. I am fighting to keep myself calm and composed. Sometimes I just lie down and I wait for the earth to drain me. I need to keep calm. I need to breathe.

I haven't been affected this badly for a long time.
And yet I smile because of it.

Yours Truly,
Me.