Life sucks when you have to spend it everyday missing someone who you know you won't ever see again, but you won't give up hope, cause you're so close to them that the link is impossible to break. Get what I mean? I still miss my aunty. It's like every time my parents mention her I just go to my room or whatever and just cry, but I can't have attachments in my life. I mean look what's it doing to me. I'm breaking down crying just cause of the thought of her. I miss her. She taught me nearly everything I know. I wish I treated her better and spent more time with her, like when I was a kid. I wanna write to her and like tell her everything that's been happening. She was there to watch me grow up.. I know I say that all the time but it's true. She was there and that was all that mattered. I guess we need to cry once in a while. Gotten weaken sometimes, but I can't weaken all the time. I mean what's gone is gone. The past is the past. So what can I do about it?

I think I'm sick. Well I'm feeling weak and stuff lately. Been coughing a lot too. Gets kinda annoying. Holidays suck if they last too long. I mean like who wants to spend it shopping or hanging out at the same place over and over again. You're just wasting you cash. Why can't they open up some camp or something? Geez. Can't the people think like this once in a while? Open a camp that keeps kids, happy and healthy instead of us sleeping damn late and eating all the junk food that makes us go all big and round. Sides people can even make money once in a while if this happens. Do a good job, get money, open a new camp get money. Heck then we can actually make friends with other people and those who we give the first wrong impression. What else can they do in Brunei... more promotion in music and all that stuff? Yea, we need to get the country to be shown on the map. Oh yea for those people who are bored and stuff go to SFDT It's a really cool place. Get to see all the little stick figures die. Just incase for those who are bloodthirsty and got nothing to do.

Have any of you ever wrote a story like definitely from your own imagination and got a writers block? Annoying ain't it? Feels like it's gonna take you years to write down the whole thing and each time you go through it you change the words cause your vocabulary expanded, so you're using these fancy words. Sooner or later you'd just forget what the hell you're writing about. How about when you get like great ideas but you don't know where to put it in the story? And then like you forget about it and when you actually finish your story you decide to try and squish it in but then it just like changes the whole plot in the story! Okay I'm just talking away here but I'm just saying. I guess you know sometimes people think this only happens to them but like actually it happens to other people who think it only happens to them. Funny ain't it? I mean it's like what ever has happen to someone it's likely to happen to someone else. Geez, can't like only one thing happen to one person and like they can keep it like some secret or shit, cause then they'll feel unique and stuff. Oh well got nothing else to say. Too blank.

When you play something for someone, you better know who you playing for.

Yours truly,
Nayt