Moody...

This has been quite the bummer of a wk. And i'm glad it's almost over. Almost, but not quite yet. I even WOKE UP feeling moody. I've to fly to KL on Sunday for work, and back again on Weds. We haven't even been given our tickets yet!

It seems that all the stuff I'm looking fwd to has to be pushed back yet again. I've got too much to do in so little time. Again I say, I need a holiday!

One thing that cheered me up today though.. I received my business cards for BRIDEX. They're so cool and I'm so pleased! =D hehehe It's quite depressing to think that something small like that could make me happy.. sigh.

I want shisha tonight. Who'd like to join me?

Not long to go

I just realised something today. Even though I've been stressing myself out trying to finish my thesis in 3 wks (mmhmm, date was confirmed with very short notice.. I couldn't believe it when I heard it), trying to juggle work at the same time, and hardly having time for myself... I'm actually content.

Of course there's the odd "I want.." (usually followed by 'shoes') and "I wish.." but I'm pretty ok right now. Considering.

One thing I always wish for though.. more time. I'm constantly feeling like time's passing too quickly. And I never have enough for myself, much less for my friends. I've alot of pending lunches and steak dinners which I haven't got round too yet. I'm hoping that after my thesis deadline and that trip to KL this mth, it'll be a little more quiet. Then I can use the time to catch up. =)

Oh, I CAN'T WAIT till I pass my probation. I so need a break.

Even a short trip some place close for a bit of shopping would be nice. Should take Puppy's advice and go on a food holiday. One of the best ideas ever, I say.

Congratulations

First, to Leny and Hil who got engaged on the 14th of March.

And also to Choochie and Nol who got engaged yesterday.

I love you guys and I'm very happy for you. =) I cant wait till the weddings!

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Nas tagged me so...

A) LIST OUT THE TOP 5 PRESENTS YOU WISH FOR :

1- Happiness
2- Motivation
3- A good longggg break
4- A good party!
5- More time

B) THE PERSON WHO TAGGED ME IS: Nasroul

C) YOUR 5 IMPRESSIONS OF HIM/HER:

1- Responsible
2- Sarcastic
3- LOUD
4- Outgoing
5- Creative

D) MOST MEMORABLE THINGS HE/SHE HAS GIVE/DONE FOR YOU->

Top tips, the company of a good friend, AND he let us run amok in his apartment with paint!

E) THE MOST MEMORABLE WORDS HE/SHE SAID TO YOU ->

Too many to recall just one phrase..

F) IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR LOVER, YOU WILL ->

Prolly be driven crazy by the maniacal laugh.

G) IF HE/SHE BECOMES YOUR ENEMY, THE REASON WILL BE ->

That I have talked trash about his lovely self and I have stolen his hot boyfriend. hehe

H) PASS THE QUIZ TO 5 PEOPLE THAT YOU WISH TO KNOW HOW THEY FEEL ABOUT YOU:

1)Hooch
2)Mia
3)Celia
4)Philip
5)Fahmi

1. WHO IS NO.3 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH? -> Her husband, of course.

2. WHO IS NO.5 HAVING RELATIONSHIP WITH? -> No one atm.. as far as I know.

3. IF NO 3 AND NO 2 ARE TOGETHER, WILL IT BE A GOOD THING? -> Oh yes, they'd get along so well and you wouldnt be able to shut them up. hehe

4. WHAT ABOUT NO.4 AND NO.5? -> They'd have the most fun (nothing dirty or weird lol).

5. WHAT IS NO.3 STUDYING? -> She's just done!

6. WHEN IS THE LAST TIME YOU CHATTED WITH NO. 5? -> When I was in Singapore about 5 wks ago.

7. DOES NO.4 WORK? -> Yes, on a big ship.

8. DO YOU HAVE ANY COUSIN IN HIS/HER OWN SCHOOL? -> I don't understand this question.

9. WILL YOU BE WITH NO. 1? -> Not in that sense, although we've known each other since grade school. =)

10. HOW ABOUT NO.5 ? -> Nope, I doubt it. He'd go crazy with me nagging and pinching all the time.

11. DOES NO.2 HAVE ANY SIBLINGS? -> Yes, 1 sister 3 brothers

12. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW ABOUT NO.2 AND NO.4? -> One I met in London through her fiance, the other I met in Coffee Bean many many yrs ago through someone else.

13. WHERE DOES NO.1 LIVE AT? -> Now she shuttles back and forth btwn hers and his.

14. HOW DID YOU GET TO KNOW NO.2? -> Dunno.. we met in Norfolk Square and we just clicked.

15. IS NO.5 THE SEXIEST PERSON IN THE WORLD? -> OOH.. with a little polish, he could very well be. hehe

Closure

I realise many of you didn't know about Danny's passing. I apologise for not informing all of you.. you deserved to know as he was your friend too. Just understand that I've had a lot on my mind and so much has been happening at once. I wasn't thinking.. I only called those who Philip specifically asked me to call. It's been a difficult few days and a huge blow to us. Again, I'm sorry to those who I din't inform directly.

Danny's family chose to have his funeral earlier today. It was a bit of a rush because as soon as he was released to his family, they decided to have the funeral straight away instead of waiting. I wouldn't have known had we not been calling his family constantly.

As a result, many were not able to make it. I'm very grateful to Yong who accompanied me to Tutong. Had to rush like crazy and then it took us ages to find the place as we aren't familiar with the area, but eventually we managed to get directions from relatives at the house. And regardless of the fact that we were very late due to the driving round in circles, we made it to the cemetery before the burial.

Although the family opened the casket to say their last goodbyes, I didn't want to look. I want to remember Danny the way he was. The smiley face he always had.. nothing else. He was finally laid to rest, and after a few words with his dad, we left.

It may not have been much but it was very important to me to be there. For myself and on behalf of Puppy. To say my goodbyes and to tell him that although Puppy and Zrin couldn't be there, that we'd come back again to see him soon. As Puppy says, Danny knows well enough about the system to know that they wouldn't be released to see him.

I know you guys abroad are concerned, but don't worry too much. We all just need some time and I'll keep in touch. Be well, it's ok to start healing.

Very few will understand this, but.. Remember the Tapir.

Danny Liew 1983 - 2008

Our dear friend Daniel Liew passed away yesterday at 2.15am, due to a tragic car accident in Kota Batu. I was just as shocked as everyone else to hear of the news. I wasn't even aware that he was back home.. I may not have known him as long as I'd have liked, but I cry my tears all the same.

The thought that I won't hear his contagious everything-is-funny-even-though-it's-not-really laugh, or again experience his quirk of saying things wrong thinking they're right, or just seeing him out and about with Puppy.. the thought is very hard to swallow.

I've had to relay the news to some of our friends and it doesnt get any easier. I've had to repeat myself till I tire of it, and even then I still hear the disbelief in their voices.

Tons called to tell me the details and as painful as they were to hear, it's good to know what happened. I'm thankful she was there at the time and Danny wasn't alone.

We had many memorable (and hilarious) moments with Danny. But the one memory that keeps playing in my mind is when I first got to talk to him even though I barely knew him at the time. It was the day of Non's sanding and we were driving to his bride's house. Puppy was with one of the other girls so I had to ride with Dan. God knows what we talked about.. we hardly knew each other, but we managed it. We complained constantly of the heat. And I laughed my head off when Danny backed into a plastic chair while trying to park, and managed to break it.

I remember going to the beach and enduring the REALLY bumpy ride Puppy and Dan took me on. There was also the time I waited in the car while they checked out remote control cars. They dragged me on many an adventure, those boys.

I'm very grateful to have known such a sweet unassuming person, someone who would play along with anything and have our backs unconditionally.

My heart goes out to Danny's family, as well as his friends, but also especially to Puppy.

I know you loved him and I can't imagine him not being around either. When it finally hits you, I'll be here for you. Thank you for introducing him to the crew. We loved his company and I know the boys, specially Hil and Pol, are still talking about Danny and his fireworks. He's alot to live up to. =] Don't worry, we'll make that date to go visit him once you and Zrin are home. Be safe, I miss you and I wish you were here..

My deepest sympathy and condolences to the family and friends who knew him. I hope you heal and take comfort in knowing that Danny not only enjoyed life, he lived it to the fullest.

Dan, we shall miss you immensely but we know you're in a better place now. Like Zrin said, the roads won't be the same without you.. and Pip's message is "You did a DANNY". We know only a few will appreciate that, but especially you. =) Rest in peace and don't cause too much trouble where you are, right? We love you. xoxo

Fluffy Bedtime Bear

It's amazing how just a couple hours of feeding my tummy and lighthearted chitchat does so much for my mood. =)

It's been a long tiring week and last night I got to satisfy my craving for Japanese food. That, plus the company of my dear Monkeybum was enough to wake me up this morning feeling, for the first time this week, ready to face the world. But then maybe it's also because plying me with good food always makes me sleepy so I probably got a good night's rest due to that as well. hehe

One craving down, at least 4 more to go.

Month of Red

Happy Chinese New Year to everyone =)

My greetings come a bit late, but the festive season isn't over yet so I still have time.

Also, Happy Belated Valentine's! I don't usually celebrate it.. my VDay's have always been spent with friends over dinner and a movie. But I still got my flowers and candy surprise. At work nonetheless. =) Hope the rest of you had a good day whichever way you spent it.

Work has been hectic and I've been keeping myself busy (actually my boss makes sure of that). 3 of us are off to S'pore tomorrow morning for 10 days. Expected to work 24/7 but at least the allowance is good. I won't be around for Chap Goh Mei though.

My brother just got home yesterday.. but from tomorrow, I won't be around. And the day I fly back, is the day he leaves again. Like an hour before I'm due to land. =/ Hardly any time together this trip, but not like he spends alot of time at home anyway. He's usually out with the girls, out with the boys.

Short post from me today, got some work to finish off before I can get other stuff done.

Would be nice to have a few more hours everyday.